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Writing- it's telling a story without telling people what to do.

FU, 25

Sandy thinks that being jealous of a dead girl is the saddest thing that has ever happened to her.  

It is the saddest most pathetic feeling in the world. She's dead. She has almost always been dead.

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Here's the thing:

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Cliché as I know, I’ve been writing for a large portion of my life. With that said, I have rarely shown anyone. 

 

I have a failsafe, you see. I’ll finish writing something and I usually love it. I think it’s the best thing I have ever written, most likely will ever write.

 

I feel so damn accomplished about it. But I’ve learned that that glowing self-praise is usually just that, and that the writing isn’t all that great.

 

I find that out later; usually years later after I’ve gained more experience and know-how. 

 

So, to combat that, I sit on my writing for a few years after I’ve finished it. I tuck it away somewhere and never look at it. Then, years later, I take it out to see if it has passed the test of time. My writing never has. 

 

Until FU, 25. 

 

I pulled it out. I reread it. And I was surprised that that feeling of mortification didn’t appear. I still felt that conviction that I wrote with 7 years ago. I knew this was the story I wanted to share with the world. 

 

So I did.

I was sitting and my mind was active;
shifting from thought to thought.
And I saw a vision of a bee zipping from flower to flower. 
So busy. So on task.
And then we both stopped and sat on a flower.
It was beautiful; that flower.
Eventually we sat still long enough that we began to notice
more and more flowers. And then a whole garden. 
We sat and breathed in that beautiful garden for a long time.
Until a realization came to us;
We're the garden too! 

© 2019 by S.E. CRAWFORD 

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